Green Envy

"We all know you like him, why don't you tell him?" Ana's voice came from over my shoulder and I pulled my heavy science book from the top shelf of my narrow school locker, rolling my brown eyes impatiently.
"We also all know that he doesn't like me, Ana." I mumbled, not wanting to talk about him today. Not wanting to think about him...but that was impossible. He always came to mind, whether I was thinking about what I ate for lunch, or how my turtle died two years ago. He was always there. At first I'd thought it was normal considering he was a crush, and most girls did obsess over their crushes...but it never went away. No matter how much I told myself I was over him, no matter how many girlfriends he had. He was always there. I turned to face Ana, tucking a piece of too-long brown hair behind my ear and hugging my science book tightly to my chest.
"He totally likes you, Klaudia." She said, folding her arms across her graceful torso and giving me a look.
"Ana, he has a girlfriend." I snapped, slamming my locker behind me and giving her a fierce look. We gave each other these looks all the time. Everyone knew we were never mad at each other. It was a way of telling each other we were 100% serious. For real. However you wanna put that. She looked at me for a second and then burst into laughter, leaning against my locker for support and laughing harder. I giggled a little bit, rolling my deep brown eyes again and elbowing her in the ribs, only making her laugh harder.
"Ana!" I giggled, shaking my head and walking off as she continued to laugh. Ana was crazy, but she was practically my sister. We told each other everything and were constantly together. I marched down the hallway, laughing under my breath and clutching my science book tightly. I really had to learn to get some courage. I wanted to tell him, but then he might avoid me or something. I just wanted to wait until he made the move. I was too...scared I guess.
I hadn't realized I wasn't watching where I was going until I felt my feet fly out from under me and my small body land on the dirty tile with a thump. I heard laughs all around me, I felt a flush creep across my pale skin, slowly covering every little freckle on my face. I took a deep breath, glancing around for my science book and not seeing it anywhere, starting to freak out.
"Missing something?" I heard behind me, and I turned around and looked up to see him. He was standing there looking at me with a sort of humored expression, chuckling lightly to himself, holding out a hand, and I realized the other hand held my science book. I took the hand not holding my heavy peice of learning equipment (learning equipment? Why did my mind always go buzerk when I was around him?!), and stood up clumsily, trying not to fall again. He handed me my science book, and I bit my lip, wishing my fiery red cheeks would subside to their normal rosy color.
"Thanks, Jesse." I muttered, realizing I was probably blushing even more now. Everyone was staring at me like I was some kind of a freak as they passed by, and I looked down in shame. Everyone thought I was a freak...not that it changed anything. I was already the weird girl. I barely had any friends, and the friends I did have, were only my friends because I was so easy to push around. I never stood up for myself. I was independent and confident on the outside...but on the inside..I was just a scared little girl. No one seemed to see that. Whatever. I looked down, trying to avoid his big green eyes, and then I realized I hadn't let go of his hand. I quickly released it and looked up at him nervously.
"No problem." He said, his perfect crooked smile spreading across his features. I couldn't help but smile at that. He was really something.
"Hey." I heard her perky, feminine voice behind him and resisted the urge to roll my chocolate brown eyes. Of course she had to ruin the moment. She always did. I bit my lip tightly as she wrapped her arms around his neck and kissed him, looking like she was about to attack his face. Now that was messed up. I didn't even bother to say goodbye. I just turned and walked down the hallway and to first period, my feet dragging. What a horrible start to my day.